Crashing Down

I love the days when everything seems to be crashing down on you. When you have the worst attitude possible and you just know you're heart is not in the right place. Actually, I really dislike those days. But something that I do love about them is that it's God knocking at you're heart, telling you to surrender everything to Him and to let Him completely surround every part of you.

Those are the days when I decide to get away from people, get away from the business of my life and sit in quietness with God. I grab a blanket and bible, drive/walk somewhere, and just sit.

In that moment I lay everything down at His feet, and absorb only what's of Him. I may be bawling, laughing, or just silent. But it's so sweet.

Above is where this last happened. I was going to attempt to climb up a hill that overlooks Simi Valley and has a cross on the top of it. But being the cleaver girl that I am, I wore flip flops, so I only got so far. But this view still left me in awe. I sat there thinking "why the heck did you bring me here?", but I know it is because this is where my story really begins. This is where my identity lies. This is where God is going to shape me into the woman that He wants me to be. It may be hard, and it may take many days where I have to just get away from the world. But I am so completely ready.

So days where you feel like your crashing down and nothing makes sense. Just get away. God does amazing things in those quite moments alone with him.